Just a Little Something

Thankful for the unexpected positive encouragements. 

Today it was an older lady at work that I had a quick conversation with this morning. 

I don't even recall what brought up the topic. 

 But, she just said, "People are who they are.  We can't change them.  We can pray and God can change them - and we can pray that God can change our attitude towards them.  But, we can't change people." 

I love the affirmation that we are small and what we can do is small. 

But, with God, big things can happen. 

On another note - I found this on Dax's calender this weekend :)  

Guess I know what my Birthday present is!! 

Excited for some outdoor Rockin'!!

For You - If You Still Read This

This goes out to a person who I used to call a really good friend. Last time I heard from you, I received a sweet and ironic tune. This is my tune for you. I hope you are well.

"Scars"

I tear my heart open,

I sew myself shut

My weakness is that I care too much

And my scars remind me that the past is real

I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down

And I just wanna be alone

I'm pissed cause you came around

Why don't you just go home

Cause you channel all your pain

And I can't help you fix yourself

You're making me insane

All I can say is

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut

My weakness is that I care too much

And our scars remind us that the past is real

I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once

Against my own advice

I saw you going down

But you never realized

That you're drowning in the water

So I offered you my hand

Compassion's in my nature

Tonight is our last stand

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down

And I just wanna be alone

You shouldn't ever come around

Why don't you just go home?

Cause you're drowning in the water

And I tried to grab your hand

And I left my heart open

But you didn't understand

Go fix yourself

I can't help you fix yourself

But at least I can say I tried

I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

The Good Life

She sings the song from the bottom of her soul

Tears running down her tired face

"It's Gotta Be The Good Life"

She walks alone with a heavy heart

Only dreaming of a fresh start

"This Could Really Be A Good Life"

She tries to hold her head up high

Knowing she's wound up back where it all began

"It's Gotta Be The Good Life"

With a deep sigh she picks up the phone

The time has come to let it all out

"This Could Really Be A Good Life"

However he takes the news, she knows

She did what she had to with nothing to loose

"It's Gotta Be The Good Life"

YUP!! :)

I CAN do this...

I AM strong enough...

I WILL get past/through this...

CAPABLE me.

"Honestly OK" by Dido

Speaking from my heart today.....

"I just want to feel safe in my own skin

I just want to be happy again

I just want to feel deep in my own world

but I'm so lonely I don't even want to be with myself anymore

On a different day, if I was safe in my own skin

Then I wouldn't feel so lost and so frightened.

But, this is today and I'm lost in my own skin..."

That Silly Little Thing Called....

I hate that place between yes and no,

Right between maybe and probably,

Fits in next to unsure and definitely.

That’s one place I don’t want to go…

Somehow, I always have a one way ticket there and end up having to hitchhike home.

Maybe someday I’ll be handed a ticket to a real destination.

for the record...

I recently have experienced some events that have made me consider my actions/thoughts on things. My reason for this post is just to remind me in another year, six months, twelve years.. whatever... that I noticed this and felt this way at some point in my life.

There is definitely something to be said for poor decision making and the human mind. Now, what my opinion is on that will stay in my thoughts...

But the evidence of thought processes, lack of thinking actions through, failing to consider the consequences/outcomes and the lack of ability to complete said processes without an ounce of maturity has blown my mind.

That quote that goes something like... "It is better to remain silent and be thought a fool, than to open your mouth and remove all doubt" has been running over and over in my head.

I just hope I don't find myself fitting any of the above descriptions. I hope I can find it in me to tolerate and dismiss any of the above that I may come in contact with in the future.