Those Things

This is to "those things" no matter how little or how large that change us for the better or worse.

Empty, alone, broken, unhinged.
Completed some things I never should have done.
Scared for myself and what is to come,
Knowing my actions will end up on the menu
Probably under “appetizers, main entrees, regrets and never should-have-beens”
All in different sizes to quench any appetite for destruction

Wanting to turn back and change it all but knowing it wouldn’t be worth it.
Trying to learn and ask forgiveness of what I am ashamed to have done.
Wishing I could forget and hoping it goes unnoticed..
I sit here and live.

My Little Gecko's Return

I'm trying desperately to ignore the fact that it's past my time to get up when suddenely someone is rapping on my door. "I found her, I found her" I hear Megan shout urgently! I sit up in bed as Meg opens the door. I screech, "Where is she??" Her response,..... "RIGHT IN MY HAND!" I bolt out of bed and direct Meg to put Amali in her tank immediately! Megan explained that as she was getting ready that morning she just happen to see Amali on the floor in the living room... did a double take and went for her. I am SO happy words can't describe... So thank you Meg for saving my sanity!!!! Amali has returned and seems to be happy, healthy and a little scared of human interaction. She is doing well so far and was eager to eat and drink! She spent about 4 days roaming our house and noone but Ms. Amali knows where her travels took her. I'm just glad she came home. :)

Gecko on the Loose

This evening was a typical winter evening.... Light snow flurries, slow rush hour traffic, sledding with kids, hot cocoa and hot chocolate chip cookies, straight from the oven. Besides a crack or two from sledding down the hills and singe from hot cocoa and cookies, pain wasn't part of the evening. I fed Amali (for those of you who don't know, she is my beloved leopard gecko as I'm allergic to furry animals) and took her out of the cage to have some human interaction. She was passed around as usual from person to person crawling about. Time passed and noone had brought her back to me (which happens after about 20min or so) and so I inquired about the location of my beloved pet. Well, that was unknown and the last sight of her was her tail disappearing under the couch. We searched the room and the vents... Still no gecko. Believe it or not, I'm actually kind of hurt. Odd for this cold hearted woman, who typically has no emotion or regard for unhuman life. So, I'm still on the look out for a crawling Amali and hopefully she'll come home, dragging her tail behind her... looking for mealworms. If she doesn't, this mommy doesn't know what she'll do. :(